We're NOT perfect...

And no one except for ourselves expects us to be. Why are we women so hard on ourselves? It's crazy because for some reason we seem to be our own worst critics in every single aspect of our lives. It's sometimes so hard to see the good that we do because we focus so much on the things that we either didn't get done, wanted to do or meant to do or plain did wrong.

Unfortunately it's not just me that feels this way from time to time....it is every single woman I talk to. We need to all just stop listening to that negative nagging voice inside our heads telling us we're not good enough and realize that we are truly daughters of God and he loves us and doesn't expect us to be perfect. Instead of focusing on the things we didn't finish today or don't think we are doing well or don't like about ourselves; even if it is Mothering we need to acknowledge the things we are doing well as well the things we are TRYING to do well. Look for the good in ourselves every single day and every single time we look into the mirror don't look for a new wrinkle, notice your pretty smile or eyes.

You are beautiful! You are a wonderful aspiring chef! You are super talented! You are so sweet and compassionate! You are an excellent house keeper and decorator! You are so patient and quick to help! You are such a great wife! You are a Superior Mother who loves her children and is doing the absolute best you possibly can! Please don't beat yourself up, give yourself some credit for doing all that you do and most importantly remember that Heavenly Father loves YOU! So do I...have a great day and this truly is my Christmas Wish and prayer for every woman I know.

Painted Nails & Martha's in the HOUSE

So this morning we were getting ready, McKenna is brushing her hair and I'm finishing my makeup in our bathroom and in walks Calvin with his shoes and socks. He sits down on the floor to start putting them on and he is talking to us etc...all of the sudden he says very excitedly, "Wow Mom nice nail paint!" I say, "what?". He repeats himself. I say, "what I don't know what you are talking about buddy?". He says very animated, "I didn't KNOW your work LET you wear painted nails to work they are SO NICE! Wow and you did a really good job, they look very pretty! Wow, your work is so nice, they don't let anyone wear painted nails at my school." I say laughing, what about the teachers and he says well maybe they let them but probably only if they ask first. It totally cracked me up because I work for the school district, anyways it was funny this morning the way he said it and how astonished he was with how nice my work was to let me polish my own finger nails. He notices things most 6 year old boys wouldn't...polish, makeup, hair, clothes, necklaces, shoes etc and is always so positive and sincere when complimenting them.

McKenna is going to be the next Martha...she's sewing her own apron in 4H and made her own hair scrunchy. Wants to start the cake decorating class in 4H also. She's been baking cookies and doing such a great job! Wanting to help in the kitchen all of the time. She sorted some laundry this past weekend too. Since she was about 8 she's designed modest dresses and wants to make her own clothes line. She's very crafty and loves doing anything related to art. :o) For over a year now she has said she wants to own a restaurant and ice cream shop when she grows up and she'll be a Vet on the side and own lots of dogs. (is that Martha Stewart or what?) Anyways, she has her life planned out; she wants a VW bug car old fashioned one that's hot pink, she wants to take some college classes in high school, graduate high school, move to Utah and live with Grammy while she attends BYU so Grammy can cook for her and make her all time favorite Banana Choc Chip Muffins, get married in the temple when she is 25 and I already mentioned she wants to become a Vet and own the ice cream restaurant. :o) Last Sunday they had the primary children sing a song and McKenna was about a foot taller than the tallest kids...some friends in our row who happen to be in the YW's program said, "McKenna is 12 right or will be soon?". :o) NOPE she's only 10!

I love these two and just wished I got to hang out with them more often to learn from them and see the world through their eyes more often. This post is for me I've learned that I forget these funny things way too fast.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

We are all super busy this time of the year but this year I'm so far behind for Christmas that it is causing me to loose sleep at night literally. Usually I'm ready for Christmas no later than October but this year I've not gotten anything yet!!! I'm gonna have to say it's working full time that has prevented me from accomplishing all that I normally do. Of course all my kids want are things like: the Wii, Nintendo DS's, IPod's, Cell phones, Game Boys, Guitar's with amps and a hot pink & purple type writter! What ever happened to a foot ball, skateboard, roller blades or a baby doll??? :o)

Last week I worked almost 50 hours! It's hard to come home pick up the house, cook dinner, help with any homework, get kids in the shower, manage the finances, do the grocery shopping and all of that stuff. Saturdays are my cleaning, laundry and shopping days but since Will started sitting the Liberty Model homes I help go do BPO's for him on Saturdays so I've not had any time to go Christmas shopping.

This week I've had two 3.5 hour dentist visits to squeeze into work and I was supposed to go on a field trip to Shamrock Farms with Calvin's 1st grade class tomorrow but it got cancelled due to rain and the farm being too muddy for us to walk around. Shamrock Farms is only 20-25 minutes from us and there are many other huge dairy farms around hence the lovely odor here. :o) Friday I have a payroll training class to go to in Glendale which is about 1 - 1.5 hours from here from 8am til 5pm so that will be a long day then Friday evening we have a family Christmas party in East East Mesa again about 1 - 1.5 hours from here one way. I might have to work Saturday because payroll needs to be done no later than Monday at 8am due to Christmas and not having the Governing Board available to sign our voucher so when will I get to shop on Christmas EVE?????

See why I can't sleep??? :o)

Want to go to the Temple Lights tonight?

We are going to the Mesa LDS Temple Lights tonight Saturday arriving there at 6:30pm if anyone was interested in going also or meeting there just call me on my cell #480-216-6880 and let me know. :O)

I absolutely LOVE this picture......

I've always tried to imagine what Heavenly Father looks like

My Sweet Grandma Glenna

My beautiful Grandma Glenna just lost her husband of 27 years, my step Grandpa Charlie a little over a month ago. Of course she is heart broken and doesn't know what to do with all of her free time since she was used to taking care of him 24/7....but now she is left with a huge financial burden too. I feel so bad for her. She has gotten in excess of $93,000 worth of hospital bills, had to charge my Grandpa's funeral expenses and is only getting $3000 from his insurance towards that, needs new glasses, has skin cancer that is growing rapidly that will require radiation and will only have a thousand bucks to live on a month not to mention any other bills such as utilities etc. I don't share this to embarrass her by anymeans.

Below is a picture taken with her 5 daughters the day after Grandpa's funeral. Back row from left to right: Diane, Toni, Debbie and my Mom Sherri. Front row: Grandma and Shirley. She has 5 yes FIVE sons as well. She has 56 Grandchildren. 62 Great Grandchildren and one due...and she has 1 Great Great Grandchild with another due soon. What a large family! :o)

So I'm trying to get all of the able family members to contribute some money for her for Christmas for some of her burdens like a cheap car. I figured if everyone contributed a minimum of $25 that she could get a used sedan and if each of us contributed even $5-10 per month to her every month that she could afford to get new glasses and pay some necessities. I know she would be so embarrassed if she even knew I was asking but I can't help but ask I guess I'm taking my chances. I also don't want any family members to feel bad if they aren't able to contribute times are tough and money is tight. I wish I were rich and I could just take care of her. I might have to resort to a fund raiser of some kind like bake sale or something....any ideas???

Here she is the day of Grandpa's Arizona funeral...yes there were two because he was cremated and he is from New Mexico and his brother passed away and so they did a double funeral and burial. She is an angel in my eyes, she is a shining example to me and one day I hope to be half the lady she is. I love her very much and want to do whatever I can to help her, so if you have any good idea's for a fund raiser please let me know.

Going Private for reals & Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Ok so I've been a total blogtard and haven't made my blog PRIVATE yet like I said I would...the biggest reason is because I've not had a lot of time lately and the other reason is that my Mom is worried she won't be able to access my blog anymore. Luckily I will see her this week and will have the opportunity to show her how easy it is even when it's a private blog. So that is what I will do wait until we get back home from Northern Arizona and are full of turkey and I feel like sitting down in front of the computer for awhile.

If you haven't emailed me directly or commented on my previous Going Private post...you have a few more days. :o) Wishing you all a Very Very Happy Thanksgiving!!!!